This Is Not That

Today is the day I stop saying, "tomorrow."

I will write that blog post tomorrow. I will order business cards tomorrow. I will make those plans tomorrow. I will consider myself a professional creative tomorrow. You know, tomorrow.

Tomorrow is today. Right now. In this very moment. Tomorrow has arrived.

It's taken me nearly fourteen years of struggling and doubting myself and making plans to make a plan and do something. Fourteen years of putting off until tomorrow what I could have done today. I've spent half of my life wishing for more and aching to let out my creativity and let it mix with my love of business. There are really not enough words to describe everything I've felt in all of those years but the words don't even matter now. They don't matter because they don't mean anything anymore. I am here. I have arrived. I'm doing this.

It's still a struggle, don't get me wrong. In a big way. This is new and scary and I'm putting it all out there in a way I've never had the courage to do before but I'm doing it. Today and tomorrow and the day after that, I'm doing it and I'm inviting you to come along with me. Follow this change and this adventure and hopefully you'll be inspired to let your creativity flourish, too. I don't know where this will go or what it will become but I'm excited to find out.

This Is Not That (T.I.N.T.) is the culmination of every creative endeavor I've ever dreamed of embarking on. This place, this little place of mine on the internet, out there in the world, this is where I am letting myself dream bigger than I ever have and hope for things I would have once thought impossible. Maybe it won't go anywhere, maybe no one will follow along; maybe that's ok. This is for me more than it is for anyone else.

This thing that I'm doing here, this thing where I'm dreaming big and hoping for the impossible, I'm not doing it alone. For years I've gone back and forth in my mind about trying to get someone to partner with me. I searched through all of the people that I knew and thought about who would most understand what I mean and what I'm trying to do even when I don't understand myself. I've thought about who I could trust every single day with every single problem and triumph, no matter what happens. Family, yes, of course, I trust my family. The people I share my name with and my heritage with, yes, of course. But they are not my only family. Family can be more than the people who you were born having, sometimes family comes much later in life.

Part of my family came to me when I was fourteen. She was loud and vibrant and full of energy. She seemed to be bursting at the seams with this motto of "no one is going to tell me how to live my life!" She got along with the boys better than anyone else and she wasn't afraid to sit on "the guys side" in Sunday School. She was my complete opposite in almost every way and she became one of the most important people in my life. Outside of my immediate family, she is the most important person in my life.

Dani has been my best friend for half of my life and there is no one else I would rather be going on this adventure with. She very gently tells me when I'm wrong and then celebrates me when I'm right. She is one of a very small number of people that I will actually listen to and learn from. She has been there for me through too many things to mention and she has stayed by my side despite all of my ridiculous tendencies. She gets me. There is no one else I would rather be doing this with. This thing here that we are doing. This thing that may very well become nothing but could also be something so great neither of us will know what to do.

This thing is exciting and scary and we want you to come with us. We're not sure where we're going, will you come with us?




p.s. check back on Friday for Dani's thoughts on this adventure!